samedi, juillet 03, 2004
   

Life, a constant strain on reason.
it torments those who know of life and yet can't live it. those who glimpse the oasis yet never reaches it. it eludes those who have never seen the silver planes and soaring towers. it bears no further meaning to those who flaunt it, other than to contemplate the lack of time for entertainment.
who lives life the truest? living life has it's moments in joy, in happiness, in hardship, in depression. it has it's triumphs in victory, in hard work, in accomplishment.
Living, seems like a silly struggle against death.
Growing up in this idiotic Singapore is like being born into this large business family where u're supposed to take over the reins and keep on bringing money. it is saddening, and bad for the mental health. a lot of life here is about winning, about succeeding, about being. perhaps modern life in most countries is like that. it's just so irritating to keep seeing business news and disaster news in the newspapers. the heck i care about those. perhaps those bloody sentimental activists out there ought to get used to the idea of death and competition. we only got to where we are because we fought for ourselves. i suppse it's in-bred. we can't help competing and fighting. of course things can always be done in a peaceful manner. i don't subscribe to religious laws, and i don't believe, anywhere in the universe are there rules regarding peaceful behaviour towards enemies other than in the human race. how many people are peaceful for the sake of being peaceful. how many do so because it is in the interest of themselves for mutual peace. there is a fine line between those two. it will never stop. people think we're so very civilised and high up because we don't lauch jihads and wars and terrorist attacks and chop off innocents' heads. but our wars are just transfered over to schools, to education, to work, to careers, to money, to positions, to properties. it's just a different war. people are being starved to death, sick to death. and yet there are so many rich and peaceful people who just am content to keep their wealth and splurge on it. our fighting urges are manifested when necessary in movies, TV shows, comics, computer games, arcade games, entertainment games. even entertainment. entertainment is just competition which doesn't have real risks involved.

but, and i shall contradict myself, should we then let war continue freely. perhaps the way we have gone is the better alternative. no matter how hypocritical and unobvious to some.

and there was a joke which goes:
"if you think we descended from the animals which defeated the dinosaurs, you're wrong. we came from the ones who ran like hell."
obviously it's wrong, since we only came after the dinosaurs were spectacularly killed, so we did not have to content with the dinosaurs. nevertheless.
im sick of typing incoherent nonsense. apologies if you actually read through the whole thing.


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孙燕姿 - 雨天
周杰伦 - 珊瑚海


林俊杰&金莎 - 被风吹过的夏天
Kitaro - Symphony of Dreams
James Blunt - You Are Beautiful
Clannad - Seachran Charn Tsiail
Céline Dion - En attendant ses pas
ASIE - Et puis la terre
陈奕迅 - 十年
Yanni - Before I Go
Céline Dion/Garou - Sous le vent Dido - White Flag
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